The nauseousness hit hard this pregnancy and man did I struggle to navigate it. I never actually got sick, just constantly nauseous. All day. Every day. Nothing sounded good to eat, not even water. Both things I needed. It was beyond frustrating. Granted once I decided to eat something it usually made me feel better - it was getting to the first bite that was hard. Approximately 30 minutes after though the lingering taste in my mouth would bring back the nauseousness. Essentially I needed to hydrate constantly, eat small meals throughout the day and brush my teeth after each meal.
There's a lesson there.
If you've read my previous post a few weeks back then you know July through September had me over worked, more than usual. So it wasn't a surprise that the end of July began a series of sicknesses from colds to a stomach bug and finally coming to a head when I woke up the first day of our comedy festival with my eye completely shut. I had a contagious eye infection.
There's a lesson there.
A few weeks ago when my sister was here to watch Sawyer anytime he would wake up crying she would go get him but first she'd stop to pee on her way. Clifton also does this in the morning before he goes to get Sawyer. Me, I go straight to get him and nine times out of ten I've got a full bladder.
There's a lesson there.
During MacKid Meetup this year one of our speakers, Prince Daniels Jr. talked to us about self-care, loving ourselves and meditation. He gifted us with three months to his weekly unwind. I packed this in a box that we had shipped home, which is currently lost, so I didn't have the code but someone had shared it in our private FB group shortly after the trip. I've been reminding myself for weeks to sign-up and the beginning of last week it was even more on my mind, constantly popping in my head to look it up and get signed up because it expired this fall. Several days later when I finally took the time to sign up, I read it expired on the 15th. It was the 17th.
There's a lesson there.
I'm sure you caught on much quicker than I did.
It took me a long time to understand why we are told to put our oxygen masks on first instead of our child's. It took me even longer to understand this is something we should apply to our every day lives. As someone who was taught very young that her own needs didn't matter and making others happy and taking care of them was more important, my default is to take care of everyone else first and then myself. The problem is that usually at that point I've got nothing left for me. So even though I know better it's still a struggle for me to apply this lesson in my every day life - a lesson I keep learning again and again and again or most recently, ignoring. I'm working on it though. Every day, there's a lesson there.
Always,
Dana
